So I'm in a weird phase. I want to do nothing but I am searching for something. It seems I am trying to find a purpose in life (that sounds so deep!). But I'm not a very deep person, more a kiddy-pool really.
I am very happy go lucky, and just kind of go where life takes me. I make a decision and just follow it through, regardless of what happens along the way. (I never said I was simple ;) )
I procrastinate, A LOT!
I can draw and sketch. Never held a paint brush, but in my mind I can paint. I'll have to try painting and get back on that.
I worry about the small things, I believe the little things in life can make or break a person's day. The big things, I can just belt up and get through them; for some reason the big things don't phase me out that much ( how bizarre is that?)
Look at all this rambling and all the "I"'s (narcissistic much?)...
I mean I honestly have no idea as to what I currently want. I've graduated college. I have a job, a good job. I even have a small business. I have a great family (most of who I love).
Yet, I'm alone. Why? and I what do want more off?
I have no clue, I mean I even have a dog (who I also love)! Is this a midlife crisis? I'm not even 30 yet? or am I getting all crazy because I'm approaching 30? That's crazy I've been planning my 30th birthday for the last 5 years and the gift list too!
I still feel lost. Maybe it will come to me, I just need to get out of this fog.
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